there's a limit for everything..

i hope i still can wait for him

insyaAllah..

but when the time is over

i guess i have to move on..

still waiting

dear my future husband,

please find me faster..enough with your searching out there

i'm just right here.maybe you just in front of me or somewhere out there

please..i'm tired searching for you..

sounds desperate?!huh..

just my heart and this jealousy feeling seeing my friends getting married..

i was thinking when is my turns..

only GOD knows..

kinda weird feelings :(

Pia Toscano - This Time

currently listen to this song..nice one.i wish i can have THIS TIME..

pendirian

ppl changed..so do i.i've changed a lot.and i know everybody seems like not very happy with me.but my parents never say anything.coz they trust me..

it's time for me..to changed.but i'm still waiting for the right time.deep inside me,i'm crying every second of my life.thinking about the past..

SEMOGA PENDIRIAN INI TAKKAN PERNAH BERUBAH..INSYAALLAH

umi..1st sept

4am..and i still cannot close my eye..

today is anniversary of my late mother..menghembuskan nafas terakhir pada jam 3pagi.how i wish you were here umi

klu diberi kesempatan,sarah nak jumpa umi.cium umi and peluk umi.sebab sarah xpernah puas dengan kasih sayang umi.xpernah puas..walau dulu kita x sependapat.and sarah tau sarah anak yang degil..tapi sarah xpernah penat jaga umi dulu.sebab sarah nak umi tau sarah sayang umi lebih dari diri sarah sendiri..

kalau la umi tau..rindu sarah xpernah terubat.xde ape yang dapat ganti umi dalam hidup sarah

lisence

i really wanna take a big bike lisence..
i dont know why.but my heart really want me to do that..
but i'm not sure.should i?? :)

selamat berpuasa

selamat berpuasa readers..btw,since start puasa xsempat lagi nak balik melaka.rindu nak sahur and berbuka dgn family.rindu nak tgok lauk mcm2 kat depan mata.coz my family are big family.so,of coz takat 2-3 juadah xkan ckup..well,bln puasa baru start.tp da mcm2 dugaan.alhamdulillah,nothing happen..but now,i really miss my car.after the accident.now still dalam bengkel.i didn't inform my parents coz i dont want them to get upset.btw,i'll take care of myself and i know i have to take a risk.hopefully ALLAH melindungi hambaNya..

bufday party

my lil sista birthday party..thers a story behind.and i feel like so cute this lil girl..she force my mum to celebrate her birthday party and before my mum say a single words,she already invite her friends..and my mum was like -_- speachless.. 'bertuah punya anak' :)

regret

i never regret anything in my life.but now i just realise i regret of sumthing.but it's too late to regret..every breath i take,i just think about it.why..why should i think about it.i feel like i've taken the wrong way.i should follow another road.but i just too scared..scared of myself.scared to face the reality.reality that i am nothing..but i know that i am strong.strong enough to face all this alone..

THEY SAY IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE YOU SHOULD LET THEM GO..

BUT THEY NEVER SAY..

WHAT TO DO WHEN THEY DONT COME BACK

last nite wit mr L

last nite after lepaking with my gf at usj,i'm driving home with two of my gf..when we stopped at the traffic light,1 of my fren suddenly shouting.. "kat atas tuh!!!"..without thinking too much,i just jump at my fren coz i knw it.my soulmate,MR LIPAS!luckily i already stopped my car..i was wondering what happen to me if i'm driving alone.i think i will just leave my car at the middle of the road..what should i do.seriously i'm freaking out if i've seen it.. '_'

sumtimes..when i rmember back the things that i've done,i feel so stupid.but now,i just can cry alone thinking about it.i miss the thing..i miss that moment.i miss everything about it..but all i can do now is nothing..

WHAT PEOPLE SAY ISN'T GOING TO STOP ME

I JUST DO WHATEVER I WANTED TO DO..

I DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE

BCOZ THEY DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME..

lil sista

i'm scared!i have 2lil sista..and im scared they will be like me..i've been watching them.growing without nobody beside.like me those days..hell yeah,i can say that i am sumbody now.but i'm not sure about them.but all i can say is i'm scared!!!bcoz ppl nowadays are so cruel,so crazy..what can i do in this situation coz i'm far from them.what can i do to protect them.how i wish i can send and fetch them from school.guide and teach..but all i can do is nothing.i know my late mom will get upset.coz i'm not taking care of them.coz i supposed to..i'm the only kakak they have.and i'm also like umi for them coz our late mom already told me and ask me to taking care of my siblings.well,all my siblings already know to take care themselves.it's just that i'm lil worried about this 2 lil sista..i dont want them to be like me

I.M.Y

i like everything about you..
i like the way you make me feel
i like that what you say is true
and i can only hope that this love is real

i like all the things you say
i like the way you listen
i like that u dont always have it your way
look at everything i would have been missing

sumtimes i get mad at you
i dont like the things you say
i know you feel this way about me too
but i know how to put it all away

you act weird sometimes
i dont understand
i know this is going to take time
but i dont care coz u are my man..








p/s:sumtimes i feel my heart will burst.coz i miss you so much..

braces

planning to use a braces..but,i'm scared!seriously..i'm just waiting for the right time to see the dentist.but seriously serious..i'm scared!after i've seen a lot of pic in the internet..look like so terrible.but i don't know..can it done under general anaesthesia?? :p

when i look at you..

there is no guarantee that this life is easy..

but when my world is falling apart and when there's no light to break up the dark..that's when,i look at you..

when the waves are flooding the shore and i cant find my way home anymore..that's when,i look at you..

when i look at you, i see forgiveness, i see the truth..
you love me for who i am..
right there where they belong and i know i'm not alone

p/s: I.M.Y

sumwhere in my own world..

enjoying my holiday..such a very nice place :)

I am not as good as I should be, I am not as good as I could be

but..

THANK GOD...

I am better than I used to be ^_^

spending time with my sayangs

spending time with my kesayangan..

watching them growing without realizing that i've been missing them for every second of my life