just mumbling..

dilemma and confused with myself..till now i dont know am i doing a right thing or not.i need somebody to listen to me.but i dont know who can be a good listener..sometimes i feel like i have nothing.i have nobody to love me..i have nobody to listen to me.so,i guess i'm a good listener to myself..sounds like i'm crazy aite!but who can we trust other then ourself..i trust nobody.coz it scared me

i know i still have time to change my life..but sometimes i scared to face the reality.coz it hurts..i just want my own life..please,give it back to me!24hrs a day,7days a week i've been bz.bz working, bz thinking, bz walking, bz eating, bz watching, bz observing and now bz blogging.and i have no quality time for myself.pity me!

btw..i dont know what am i talking about.its just that i'm not happy with myself..and i still figure out why!i have my own money.i have my own car.but...i'm not happy :(

i just keep it to myself..i dont need ppl to judge me.i know what am i doing eventhough i feel stupid most of the time..i let other ppl run my life.i let other ppl make a desicion for me.i let other ppl control me.so what am i doing if most of the time other ppl take my own part..i do nothing!thats what i can do..

but i know one day,i have to change all this nonsense..not to say i'm selfish.never okey!!!i always think about other ppl.and you know what..i think about other ppl more thn myself.trust me..


p/s:this is nothing to do with anybody..my blog,my words!peace (^_^)